Greater glory

This is a year of greater glory yet looking at the titles of my posts, I seem to be going through issues. 

Am I an addict to bad news? So much so that I create them? 

Why can't I live my life such that I am enjoying every moment? Appreciating everything that has been given to me?

I feel like I'm a bad person, coming home, coming to family lunch and just spoiling the mood for all. 

I hate it. I hate me.