Fears

What fears could 1 have? What fears do I have?

Fear of disappointment 

Fear of failure

Fear of betrayal

More importantly, fear of being hurt again. 

I didn't need anyone in my life. Yet You bring Jeremy into my life. 

But I don't think I can take on the fears of rejection, disappointment or hurt. 

I don't wana worry or care if I am good enough for him or that I meet his list of criteria. 

I don't wana be judged anymore. I don't want to rely on anyone anymore. 

I understand where he is coming from. He is tired. He didn't sleep the whole night. 

Yet I can't help feeling diaappointed. I can't help wondering what caused him not to be able to sleep. What was he doing? Or who was he with. 

He drinks. Quite abit too. N he seems far from a recluse. 

I am not keeping my time for him anymore. 

I had wanted to spend time with hm today and had kept it for him today. But he wrecked it. 

I don't want to see him tomorrow either or ever again. Maybe I'm over-reacting   Maybe I'm Pms-ing. 

I'm just really upset cos I could have made other plans.